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I SAW MYSELF WITH DE DEVILS...

Call to me: Witch! Witch!
Tell me I believe in the devil.
Beg my confession,
Save my soul
From my own black deeds.

Hang me, for I follow the prince of darkness,
Burn me, allow me to rot with him.
My spellbooks and enchantments,
All forbidden black magick.
The shadow of evil,
You say, Darkens my door.

Wicked and vile,
Sinful, seducing.
Scream that I don't deserve to live anymore.

Show me your weakness,
You'll never see mine,
You say my sight has been clouded,
But it's you who is blind.

Accuse me, and hate me,
Kill if you must,
But when the last hope has fallen
I'll rise from the dust.

And it will not be Satan
Who rises with me,
But a beautiful goddess,
The one you would not see.

So hate me, and kill me
I will not shead a tear
I will rise from the darkness
You all seem to fear.

One last time I will chant,
A sacred God's song,
Pray to my lord and my lady,
Forgive you your wrongs.

And my deeds were not evil,
In time you will see,
What I could have done,
Had you not taken me.

BROKEN

I made a promise
Under a crimson sky,
Where I saw you lying,
That I should let you die.

And the ground below you
Was stained with blood,
I should release you,
But I never could.

I made a promise,
One I could not keep,
My love is too selfish,
To rock you to sleep.
So I held you for a moment,
As they save your life,
And I wonder if your living,
Is halfway worth it's price.

And I turn as you beg me,
Tears upon your face,
Save you from the horror,
Take you from this place.

I made a promise,
That will never be,
My broken angel,
I need you with me.

Tinted Windo

Blue's and reds all mixed together,
Orange and pink from a setting sun,
A shadow falls on desert sand,
Another nightmare just begun.

Things appear and fade away,
There's a fire in the snow,
You're the smartest that we've ever seen,
There is so much you don't know.

A tinted window makes things
Appear to be what they are not,
Eternal rainbows of happiness
Cover souls that slowly rot.

Through the glass they're screaming,
But the colors block it out,
There's a smile frozen on their face
No matter how loudly they shout.

Until they're finally broken,
And the window shatters to the ground,
There's darkness there forevermore,
And still they make no sound.

They don't know I'm lying,
When I say my eyes don't cry,
I've kept up the guise of living,
Though inside I slowly die.
I'll never show a weakness,
Though perhaps an angry rage,
I'm too strong to seem like I've weakened,
Trapped inside this mortal cage.
And I know they think I'm crazy,
With each new scar I make,
But the truth is, it feels better,
Than the pain I have to take.

The scars are faint reminders,
Each one of them will fade,
There's a lessen and a story,
Behind every one I've made.
They tell me what I've lived through,
And that it will get harder yet,
But I've always pushed on through it,
And I can't ever forget.

Inside I know that I'm a coward,
Too afraid to save myself,
Clinging to a faithless hope,
Stored on that dusty shelf.
I wonder what it'd be like,
If I left them all behind,
Would I regret their sadness,
Or forget in the peace I'd finally find?
I know I'll never do it,
Just another of my lies,
But the thought is almost tender,
In the darkness of my mind.

I could hold ten thousand pounds,
If I wasn't so tired and weak,
It gets harder to sing with every dawn,
So I'll close my eyes and softly speak.

Still in every moment of sadness,
I wage my eternal fight,
Keep praying to find sunny days,
And sweet, sacred nights.
So I'm an angel with a broken wing,
Trying oh so hard to mend,
Finding solace in the very few,
My soul, my love, my friends.

I lie to them when I smile,
I reassure them when I don't,
Though leaving them has crossed my mind,
I know deep down I won't.
I try and say that I don't need it,
That I can do it on my own,
But the truth is, I'd be dead now,
If they'd left all alone.
They don't know they do it,
And there are things I will not say,
Even though they still think I'm crazy,
They save me every day.

SCARS

So pile on the weight again,
Crimson gives me a fresh start,
Though it seems that you have won, my dear,
You'll never still my heart.

It's funny how I'm dying,
But I want so much to live,
That even though I want release,
I'm giving all that I can give.
And it's odd how when I'm crying,
My smile is the truth,
And how I feel so very old,
But I'm clinging to my youth.

My spirit's made of diamonds,
The strongest that there are,
You can stop me for the day,
But that won't get you very far.
I am serene as the ocean,
Eternal as the moon and sun,
And even broken and bleeding,
You won't ever see me run.

CUT

Scraping.. Tearing.. Pulling..
The one thing I have control over,
The one thing to take my mind off my life,
The one thing to calm me down.
Running.. Dripping.. Bleeding..
To show me I'm still alive,
More than an empty shell,
To give me a freash start.
Healing.. Scarring.. Staying..
My silent cry for help,
I'm not always okay,
Not always smiling..
And I can't always be strong.
It tells what my voice cannot say,
It cries for what my mind cannot comprehend,
What my pride cannot allow me to show.

It hurts less than what I must bear,
It speaks for what will not pass my lips,
It takes me far away, if only for a moment.
My crimson savior...

IN ROSE

Fire...
fire can burn the walls
he has built to protect him
Fire, his only fear
afraid it may burn him
or turn her fragile soul to ash
Fire, the symbol of the passion in her heart
the un-dying trust and unwaivering love
The intensity of his eyes
the chaos of his past

Ice...
Ice that has sheilded him so long
feelings are dangerous,
they will only cause harm
the blue of her eyes
that he tries to escape
afraid of change, afraid to hurt her
The coldness he has shown for so long
the only emotion he knew was lust
lust for battle, lust for blood.

Air...
Things are so easily lost
like a summer breeze
they slip from your grasp,
you are to powerless to save them
this is all they know.
A world that changes to quickly
they both lose everything
nothing is forever
except his promise, and her faith

Love...
Fear in its every esscence
afraid to start, afraid to stop
their past allows little choice
but love cannot be stopped by fire,
not by ice or the strongest wind
Love binds war to peace
Soldier to Angel
Chaos to Serenity
Love doesnt see the hate of the battles
or the betrayl, or tears
It sees only a boy
emotionless, empty, a machine of their wars
and a girl,
innocent, strong, torn from the peaceful life she knew
and it leads him to protect her,
as she will comfort him
War to Peace
Soldier to Angel
Chaos to Serenity
Forever..."In rose".

THE DEMONS'S LULLBY

Long ago I heard a song

of a silver shining starone that would always love you

no matter where you areI never found the little star

but what I found was you

and I promise over time and space

I'll always love you true

Should we ever need to part

I'll seek you out againnot even Satan's army

could stop me in the end

Angel of the demonsremember what I say

Tonight we've won our battle

Tomorrow brings another day

All In Time"It seems strange to me,

how two who have never known love,

never felt a caring embrace,

and never heard whispers of comfort for pain,

can feel so strongly,

that it surpasses the wars,

and the unshed tears,

and the blood,that has defined them.

It seems strange to me,

that something as tiny as a pearl,

can hold everything that a man has,

his past, painful as it is,

his family, though they will never know,

and his newest companion,

one so like him,

they are bound in an instant.

It seems strange to me,

that the chains and bindings of her past,

the only reminders of the pain,

of the emptyness and the screams,

can in turn give her such relief,

make her heart beat so fast it hurts,

at the mere sight of the one who has removed them.

It seems strange to me,

that the most painful of moments can bring comfort,

the torrents of blood can bring peace,

the angels of death can bring life.

Yet,

perhaps this is the beauty of love,

its ability to change darkness to light,

to bring two of such tragic pasts together,

each a touniquet for the tears and the pain of the other.

Something so unclear,

becomes pure as crystal

and perhaps it is not so strange after all

The will to live:

She has saved himThe power to forget:

He has freed her

The ability to love:

They will teach each other...All in time.

TRIBURTE

'Goodbye' was formed
On one hundred lips
through one thousand tears
for just one person.
But...there should have been more.
You were...
My mentor,
My dearest friend,
My grandmother.
A constant smile,
A never-ending light.
Often, my only hope,
my savior.
You are...
My guardian angel
My only confidant
My every wish.
A divine memory
A shining legacy
A lost dream.
Everything I hope to become...
I saw in you.
Everything I live for...
A result of you.
There should have been more,
but not more tears.
One million I have shed.
There should have been...
Just one more....
Goodbye.
But it will never come.
For, you see,
Your right here.
Why say goodbye to someone standing right next to me?
You remain...
My only hope,
My savior,
My every wish,
My life.

------
In loving memory Nancy Ann Gaab, R.N

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